Wilting, Wilted Rose

Watch me so I won’t die,

Or someone might see the tears I cry

And the smatterings of crimson on my handkerchief.

Kiss me to freeze time.

Please, trap this moment,

Own it, hold it captive in a jar.

Take it out and caress it like you used to me

When you get lonely.

Call it beautiful.

Keep me safe and alive in your mind’s eye.

Tell our children that I love them.

Tell them that just because all that’s left of me

Is a cold body wrapped in yellowing lace,

That doesn’t mean that I’m not close.

Tell them that I’m watching, waiting, and loving them as they grow.

I don’t blame you if another sleeps by your side.

As long as she’s good to our children and loyal and true to you.

You’re not being unfaithful,

So follow your heart.

Hold our family close, both the old and the new.

Because if there’s one thing I learned in life,

It’s that nothing is certain and that’s not a bad thing.

So, please, my love, my wonder, my knight,

Keep your chin up,

And life will eventually end up right.

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Dear Love

Dear Love,

You hurt.  You make me cry.  You keep me up at night.  You shove me past the brink of no return.  You warm me.  You give me something to hold on to.  When I glimpse you, I never want to live life without you.

Your exquisite agony is something I’ve discovered that I can’t live without.

I don’t ever want to know what life would be like without you.  It’s pathetic, I know.  I’ve become so dependent on you.  This…  indescribable feeling you give me is better than any high.  You’ll probably end up shattering my heart.  But who knows?  You’ve given me hope for something more.

You’re my lifeline.

Please don’t snap.

– Nita Pan

Whisper to Me

Whisper to me and tell my some lies.

Don’t walk away

Because I know that’s not all you can take.

You got around to kissing me

Goodbye on the and.

I knew I’d see you again,

But it’s still so sad.

Hold me.  Please hear me out!

I can’t stand if it’s not the same between us.

Please don’t go!

I’m on my knees begging for you to

Come back.

I admitted that I was wrong.

Why won’t you turn around?

I was there through all your sleepless nights and our hopeless fights.

What’s keeping you away this time?

Is it me you’re keeping

At bay

This night?

I couldn’t stand our fights

But I stayed.

You couldn’t breathe that night

That I strayed.

I’m here, I’m back, I’m crying

Laying on the bed that we died in.

Please,

Whisper to me and tell me some lies

About two lovers

Who

              Stayed

                                      Together.

Forever as one.

We could’ve been a united team

But I broke our bond

Of us.

Please, when you walk away

Always remember that you’re not to blame.

And I know you took all you can take.

There was no goodbye kiss.

That was it between us.

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Soul is Floundering

Spinning round,

Never touches the ground.

His head is grounded

Yet his soul is floundering.

He wants to touch her himself

And not the beast inside him.

The beast is all she can see anymore,

Even though that isn’t what they wanted it to be.

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Confession

Hey, how are you?

Can we talk for a second?

Don’t let this worry you.

I’ll be quick, so here it goes:

I like you.

See?  That was all I had to say.

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A Crush

I can feel this feeling

Building up in my veins

The lurch in my stomach

Am I too late

To tell you how I feel?

I’m thoroughly flummoxed

By the build-up inside

Why can’t you see

That I’m just shy?

But perhaps this

Personality defect

 Will kill my wish

Of you and I

(Maybe) together at last

Time ticks by and by

And the feeling grows and grows

My heartache hasn’t quit

All my…  whatever it is I feel for you

Flows faster than the swiftest current

But a dam’s blocking it

You’ll never know

How much you mean to me

It’s all my fault

I guess that’s why it’s called

A crush

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‘Til the End (For You)

The smile on your face,

The tears you don’t let it grace.

Can’t you see

That feeling broken

Doesn’t mean that you are weak?

The grin that covers your eyes,

The agony you keep at bay.

Can’t you tell

That she doesn’t want you

And I’ve been under your spell?

The chuckle that escapes,

The fear that you radiate.

Just hold my hand.

Even if you don’t love me

I’ll be brave ’til the end.

Just for you.

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